baby, i'm here to post in your bloggie. It's 5.25pm now and there's not a single call from you. I just want to know where are you, are you ok. You must be hungry. I haven't eat anything since morning too. You know, I keep thinking of you, and made me cry. God must be playing me out. I just want you to be with me now. I'm dead stupid. Maybe this is my retribution, for lying to you, doing things behind your back. But I don't want this kind of retribution. All this is my fault, not yours. Did God misunderstand the whole situation? I don't mind crossing the road, banged by car. I don't mind falling down and land myself in the hospital. I don't mind starving to death. I just want you to be be safe and sound.

Be a good guy, work, get money and earn yourself a living. I know you've changed alot. Even if your parents don't believe that you changed, I do. I really believe. Looking at my phone, just staring at our wallpaper for long, made me really guilty for what I've done to you. Ok I'm tearing like shit now. I don't know how to stop myself from thinking all this shits. I've tried all ways. Facebook, Blackshot, even the most bo liao game I tried. Failed :,) I want to keep my mind occupied. I want to believe that you will be safe. But baby, it's tough. I don't wanna try anymore. I just want to cry and cry. Who cares if people say I'm a crybaby. Just fuck them all go eat poopoo.

I still can feel your kiss, this morning before you left. I thought you will come back in a short while. I'm still waiting for you at your house, come back. I want to hug you.